Chill tingling, nerve rattling, ANXIETY. I just woke up in the middle of the night in complete FEAR!
I'm so nervous and my anxiety level is high up on the meter. I can't remember if I had a bad dream or not.
This feeling sucks! To make matters worse and real scary is the fact that I fell, let me explain.
I passed out on the couch, and woke up hours later in a panic. I was extremely hot and a nervous wreck. Feeling dehydrated, I desired a glass of water, so off to the kitchen I went. Upon filling my glass with water, I began to walk, and my legs felt wobbly. I continued walking, and felt like I was losing more and more of my balance. Before I knew, I hit the floor, landing first on my knees, then on my chest. Honestly, I thought I had an aneurysm, because I heard one big boom, then another. I realized that the booms I heard were me hitting the floor, and not my head exploding. I don't believe I passed out, though I'm not sure. What I do know is that the glass remained held in my hand, a little water was on the floor, so this is why I don't believe I passed out. I went to the couch and stayed panic-stricken for a half an hour. I could not understand why this happened, I still don't. My knees are all banged up, slightly bleeding, because I only had underwear on, and gave myself some serious rug burns. Well, I'm freaked out and confused.
ANXIETY sucks, it's crippling.
I'm confused, did I mention that already?
Thanks for reading. I'll be at Fin tomorrow, so stop by and be kind, I'm quite fragile these days and I wouldn't be surprised if this had something to do with my stalker ordeal. I have not slept well in quite some time.
Anxiety does suck! It tries to fill up your calendar, and it's up to you to tell it to FUCK OFF!
Feel better, Telulah.
Telulah,
Let me just say, WOW how scary! I felt like I was passing out with you as you described you experience... I hope you find some peace, try shoving a clove of garlic up your ass. It will keep your mind on it, rather than the shit in your poop shoot.
I dunno. Personally, I've never had much luck with the suppositories. I tried yoga but the instructor was cruel, controlling, and dictatorial. Plus, she tried to get me involved in some sort of Amway pyramid scheme. I'm still anxious, but now I have a closet filled with cleaning products, that have names no one has ever heard of.